welcome back, favourite month!

I have some wishes in this month.

1- to have no cake on my birthday.
2- to visit a cat cafe!
3- to comment on abam's posts 🙈

sounds ridiculous, childish, immatured, but come on..

IT'S MY MONTH!

nutella absss

a very historic moment happened today at EXO'rdium in Seoul D4; BYUN BAEKHYUN FREAKIN SHOWED HIS SO-CALLED NUTELLA ABS.

like, really? you called that NUTELLA ABS? looks more like CALL-ME-DADDY ABS to me tho hmm

and sorry this entry has no relation to nutella at all.

and oh yasss fan-girling mode, ON!

satu untuk kau, satu untuk aku.

let me give out a fact; my internship ends in 3 days WOOTS

during internship, I always wonder why I've been given so many tasks compare to other trainees. why is my job task so hard. why she got that part, I got this part. why no one helps me. why I finish my task later than everyone. why, why, and why. this is so unfair.

but, I've got the answer right after I intended to write this entry. yup, that's so me. sendiri soal, sendiri jawab lewls

well, everyone got their own share of luck and hardship. maybe I feel burdened at workplace, but not in my social life. maybe she feels at ease at workplace, but struggles in her financial matters.

there. as simple as that.

whatever it is, be it a test or a gift, all praise to God for everything~

senyum, tak perlu kata apa-apa~

belek2 galeri phone, feeds instagram, timeline facebook, satu benda aku perasan;

aku senyum semua nampak gigi.

as far as I remember, I always hide my teeth when smiling. and each time I smile like that, there's always someone who tells me not to smile like that. coz apparently it seems like I pulled a flat smile, kurang ikhlas kata orang..

I truly don't recall since when did I started to show my teeth when smiling. I don't even have the perfect set of teeth, so where did the konpiden comes from?

forever waiting.

apapun benda kan, kalau ditunggu, terasa lambaaat masa berjalan.

if we wait for something to happen, it'll surely feels longer than usual.

any explanation? no? mkay.

PMS = Pre-monster Syndrome

why would ppl define PMS as Pre-menstrual Syndrome when the more accurate definition is Pre-monster Syndrome?

*eats like a pig in bed*

the power of paper-cut

working with mountain loads of paper will get you paper-cuts. lima bulan aku bebas paper-cut, akhirnya tewas. paper-cut is indeed a mysterious incident..

you won't see it coming,
you won't know how it happens,
you won't know which paper did that,
you won't know when did it happened..
(berdasarkan pengalaman aku la)

you'll only realize when your finger stings once it's in contact with water.

but you know what stings more?

when you realized abam is not interested in you. pedih mengalahkan luka paper-cut wehhh 😭

*cue lagu Dewa 19 - Pupus*

ooo baaalik kampung~ eh! baaalik rumah~

going back home today. it'll take lotsss of hour on road so, moving early is a must. and one scene among scenes that'll probably happen in that particular morning, happened just now..

"****** wake up it's late already!! WE NEED TO MOVE EARLY!!"
^ literally screaming on top of lungs

*protests a bit coz being shout at early in the morning*
*showers quickly like water gonna cut off soon*
*gets ready like a flash*
*brings stuff downstairs*

and you know what I saw downstairs?

those screaming mcm orang gila are eating peacefully at the table, not even fully dressed up.

MA HEARTEU. IT IZ HURTING.

this is one of the reason I don't like socializing with hooman.
the reason I like cats more.

*finds random cat to play with*

quick but unnecessary fact

quick fact:

I'M SICK, for the first time in 2016. but I never tell my fam, not anymore. why? the story goes back to Kajang..

once, aku baring di sofa (for a long time it is) sebab x sedap badan. then someone came and told me not to just lie there all day. the next time, aku baring sebab ngantok. then someone came and asked if I'm sick.

ASDFGHJKL@#$%& WHYYYyyYy..

since then I've decided to keep my sickness to myself and my Almighty Creator. cewah. tambahan pulak aku jenis jarang sakit. syukuuur la nak! 

hi how are you? I'm fine thank you and you?

hi there. yes you. whoever is walking by and reading this entry. I wanna tell you the reason I restarted blogging (tho it's unnecessary for you to know but meh). it's because I spilt out my identity on whatever medium I'm tryna be anonymous, sooner or later. thus my nth attempt to remain anon and write whatever I pleased like, FINALLY. do pray I succeed in this ;)

a lil bit bout this so-called monster in disguise (which I filtered so I can remain anon). red, cats, and Kpop are absolutely my things. DO NOT JUDGE MY PERSONAL PREFERENCES. in fact, don't judge anyone's. ohh and if anything, I'd like to be called 'Cik A' til further told.

might change my way of writing, stories, bahasa, from time to time. I'm a hooman. I can't stick to a single way forever. but I've predicted that it'll be mostly bout 3Ks; kats, krush, and kpop. YAS U READ THOSE RIGHT  (<< can you see the emoji? no? nvm)

lastly, to anyone who kinda get a clue or cluesss of who I am, please do me a favor and act like you have no idea. please. I want to nikmati the freedom of being anon writer.

that's all for now, adios amigos!

the restart

bismillahhirrahmanirrahim.

the restart of blogging life.

to be continued in the next entry.