A or B?

people say things that are bound to be yours will come back if you set it free, let it go. don't force it or they to stay. 'if it's meant to be, it will be'.

BUT, there goes this saying 'if you want it, go and get it'. put efforts, even lots of it, on something that you sincerely want. fight for it, so it won't fall to other's hand.

both quotes are correct, relatable to everyone, made from rational thinking. however it opposes each other's basic idea.

the question is, how do I know which quote should I make use of?

tiba-tiba terdeep malam ni. mood swings.

birthday check list.

here is the bucket list I've made on the 1st of August;

1- to have no cake on my birthday.
2- to visit a cat cafe!
3- to comment on abam's posts 🙈

aaand here is the check list;

1- failed. miserably failed. I even received 2 cakes.
2- twas done like 2 weeks before so, checked!
3- failed. but abam's commented on my posts instead YEHETTT 💃💃💃

absolutely not gonna forget my pre-birthday celebration this year coz abam was there! I wonder if he's gonna be there in my next birthday..

shut up and proceed with your work 🌚

YO IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

okay that's more than enough information for today.

(the reason why I got caught, give out my info easily)

(then shamelessly acknowledge it)

(..like right now)

stoned.

tonight, I've realized one thing about myself; I'll turn into a complete stone in front of abam.

in virtual world, etc IG, kemain huhahuha. bila berdepan, not even a glance did I care to give. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

it's like there's a switch inside of me which will automatically switches me into stone mode when it has detected abam's presence in the surrounding.

at this rate, I might just live with my cats and dolls *whispers* ..and oppas *whispers* til I'm all old and wrinkle.

so tell me, dear self, how will you find a husband in the future? tunggu jatuh dari langit?

an attempt in poetry

my day may be filled with D.O.,
my afternoon with Bogum,
my evening with Zelo..
but at night it will always be you!

hashtag sis cuba. kbai.

I'm still a kid.

while girls of my age were reading fixies, engaged in relationship, gadgets, selfies, and hipster cafes..

I'm stuck with fairy tales books, dolls, and cats. not forgetting fangirling over 9 hottest males in my eyes.

I'm a 5 years old stuck in 22 3/4 years old body.